Rodion Raskolnikov I need you come home baby please can you hear me? Come here darling. Come back to me I love you. No, its totally straight. Take my meds? What do you mean? Give me a chance. Im loosing it. Raskolnikov. Youre the only man I love. I told you its fucking straight. Whats your problem? Dont even worry about the rent sweetheart. Ive got you. See? Im a providing husband. Im going to kill myself.


I dont really use much social media at all, nor am I very fond of it, so this is everything I have.

Follow me on RateYourMusic, this is what I use most. heartlessangel

Contact me at my email: leidelend555@gmail.com I try to respond to everything.

Despite my distaste for instant messaging, its the 21st century. My discord is xx6612.

A man of the cloth, so to say..

I am infact a heretic and unforunately alive, so the title is misleading. Sorry. I am the said "Swordsman", you can call me anything along these lines. Im a straight man from Canada. I like to think Im good at analyzing media but who knows. I have bad social anxiety, that has only really flucated between bad and worse throughout the past five years. I dont think Im ever going to get better and sincerely believe that I am generally unfit for human interaction, living and dying by the rule of my own misery.
Forever stuck in my Hunters Dream..

I hold dear to my dying heart, My favourite game of all time, one of my favourite pieces of fiction ever, is Final Fantasy VII. Its one of the things that stops me from becoming cynical, something that proves the beauty in life, when I doubt it. Its like a hope in the dark. My favourite form of art is video games. Theres something special, intimate, about interacting directly within a world, coming as close as you can to belonging in it, that any other piece of media just cant replicate the conviviality of. The joy of being in the story. I could talk about FFVII for a lifetime and still have more to say.

Media Final Fantasy VII, Dark Souls, Fallout (NV), Guilty Gear, Devil May Cry, Soulsborne, Signalis.
I also enjoy... Bioshock, Blasphemous, Hearts of Iron 4, Metal Gear Solid.

Music Genres... Atmospheric Black. Blackgaze, Post-Hardcore, DSBM, Blackened Death, Black metal in general. I love music, I listen to way more than this.

Why Ky Kiske? How could I not? Hes everything I cant be. A father, a warrior, a husband, a king, someone who can grow from his actions, someone who can learn.

The Vicar Of Christ

The Swordsman.

Knight, Priest, Failure of all.


Illyrias Orchestra... Whats on rotation - April 2025

Alcest - Souvenirs d'un autre monde
Tangled Thoughts of Leaving - Yield to Despair
Sadness - Somewhere Along Our Memory
Agalloch - The Mantle

Winter spreads the last of its wings and the sun shines in its absence. April, a messy transitional month, too rainy for its own good, too sunny, all in preparation for the coming of spring. Children play outside again and you start to miss the snow. Happy Easter.